Get Yourself Some Flowers

They’re the last words you wrote. The very last time you put pen to paper, making all of the letters swirl in that carefully delicate way it took years for you to master, just happened to be about flowers.

That is marvellous.

Marvellous because you loved flowers more than anything, always finding a reason to smile in their presence. It’s the most fittingly poignant tribute that in your last hours, you were thinking about them.

Although it does make it harder to understand how you can suddenly not be in the world anymore. It’s too surreal for me to properly wrap my head around the idea that you can go from writing that note and wanting someone very special to have flowers, to not being there to see them anymore, all in the space of one day. A day that was supposed to be a celebration. A day that was actually starting to show signs of quiet loveliness.

It means from now on every December 11th will be tainted with an odd feeling that nobody can really understand – let alone articulate. I guess it would have been that way no matter what the date was though. It was never going to be easy. Loss isn’t supposed to be. No doubt we’ll all reflect, no doubt we’ll all cry, and no doubt we’ll all come to find solace in the fact that you looked peaceful; all the while filled with a deeply confused pain about how this happened so suddenly.

And in the meantime, while we try to understand what we’re supposed to do now, we’ll get some flowers. They’ll be just for you. And we’ll keep them until every last petal wilts, and the water turns grey. Their colours will fade but we’ll still smile at them. We’ll smile because of you. Because you loved them.

And when I tell your story that’s exactly what I’ll say. That she was a lady who loved flowers. She loved them right up until her very last day.

  One thought on “Get Yourself Some Flowers

  1. Robert
    December 12, 2016 at 7:26 pm

    Beautiful xxx

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  2. Ena
    December 13, 2016 at 11:42 pm

    Thank you for your recent follow of my blog! Appreciate your support! I’m a new follower too!

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  3. Leah Louise
    January 5, 2017 at 11:25 am

    Claire I just love your blog 😍 xx

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  4. morethanjustaprettyfacesite
    July 11, 2017 at 8:09 am

    This made my heart ache, this is beautiful.XXX

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    • July 15, 2017 at 2:24 pm

      Thank you so much Chips ❤️ xxxx

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      • morethanjustaprettyfacesite
        July 15, 2017 at 5:32 pm

        Love you❤

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      • July 15, 2017 at 5:35 pm

        Love you best girl 😊❤️

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      • morethanjustaprettyfacesite
        July 15, 2017 at 5:48 pm

        Have you ever heard that when you make faces and the wind blows, your face stays in that expression forever. Right now, I would have a permanent smile, so big it hurts😂❤❤

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      • July 15, 2017 at 8:05 pm

        Ahhh I feel the same whenever I get a message from you 😊❤️

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      • morethanjustaprettyfacesite
        July 15, 2017 at 8:19 pm

        So random but you know how you always use the most amzing,fantabulous,different,exotic,fantastic words?
        You inspired me to buy a thesaurus❤😂@i
        And even though that sounds so weird, I need a thesaurus in my life😂❤❤❤

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      • July 15, 2017 at 8:28 pm

        Oh my word!!! This is incredible! 😊😊😍 seriously…hearing that has made me BEAM! (I love my thesaurus more than anything! I’d be so lost without it 🤣😂) 😊❤️❤️❤️

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      • morethanjustaprettyfacesite
        July 15, 2017 at 8:34 pm

        When you tell your friends you want a thesaurus for your birthday😂😧😂😂😂❤

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      • July 15, 2017 at 8:37 pm

        Hahaha 🤣🤣😂😆❤️

        Liked by 1 person

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