The Not So Exquisite Curse Of Being Painfully Addicted To Something.

I have an addictive personality.


Now admittedly that sounds like a quality you wouldn’t exactly brag about having. But, while addiction is quite an ugly word, there are some occasions when addiction can be valuable. To quantity that with some context…I’m addicted to writing so I write everyday. It’s productive, it’s therapeutic, and even when I look back and realise I’m still guilty of using run-on setences, I’m pleased because I’ve at least written them down. Even a clumsy run-on sentence is better than no setence at all. And even a sentence about run-on sentences which contains a double negative, is better than no sentence at all. You see what I’m getting at…

Sometimes addictions can add value.

But then sometimes addictions can be fatal. And I’ve sadly had my fair share of these ones too. I’ve been addicted to the idea of being skinny to a most unhealthy degree (which then resulted in some very insensible behaviour), I’ve been addicted to some equally unhealthy boys (which again resulted in some very insensible behaviour – details of which could fill a thousand blogs over, which I won’t bore you with right now) with a load of other most unhealthy addictions in between. You know, all the usual offenders; can’t go two seconds without checking my phone, obsessed with what’s happening on Facebook, fixated on celebrity culture. The list could be endless. Now I know the things on this list  – along with my other two examples – don’t necessarily sound like addictions at all. They occur so often they’re basically pardoned as being perfectly normal. Worse than that, they’re now so common they’re actually becoming the benchmark to determine normal. Because if you’re not obsessed with the number on the bathroom scales there must be something wrong with you. And if you’re not obsessed with your iPhone, going crazy over how many likes you have on Instagram, there must be something wrong with you. Because having your phone glued to your side, unable to contemplate even sitting through a meal without it, is totally normal millennial behaviour. And wanting to look like a Victoria’s Secret model – well – that comes as standard.

But if you stop and think about this one, and you honestly don’t have to think all that hard, they are – or at least on some level they can be – addictions. And they are detrimental. The level of that detriment depends on a lot of factors; if you have quite a strong disposition they might not have any impact at all, but the more exposure they gain (while they’re being beautifully gift-wrapped as ‘normal’) the more you need to have the demeanour of Mother Theresa to ignore them. Personally, nowadays, I think it’s close to impossible to not feel some sort of effect from these things. It can range from feeling a pang of guilt every time you walk past McDonalds, to winding up in a hospital gown diagnosed with anorexia; or scouring Instagram and feeling slightly envious of all those people who’ve turned globe-trotting into a day job, to feeling so disappointed with your own life you end up diminishing your self-worth to the point where you’re wallowing in a very real state of depression. Either way, there’s an underlying belief that you’re not quite good enough; a genuine trend of real deep down inferiority.

And it’s startling to think how readily accessible we’re making this kind of unhealthy thinking.

I don’t know all that many people in the world – it’s actually a microscopic percentage of the entire population when you think about it – but I know a lot of people (real people) who battle with anorexia, anxiety or depression on a daily basis. And that’s just the ones who’ve been open about it. There’s probably a lot more who haven’t been quite so forthcoming.

There’s no one thing we can blame for this. It’s deeply embedded into our culture in a way that makes it impossible to target one particular source. But there are certainly things which contribute to this mindset of inferiority considerably more than others. The number one offender in my opinion? (And there’s no real prizes for guessing this one.) The news.

And in a later post, if you care to know, I’ll tell you exactly how I came to give it up…





  One thought on “The Not So Exquisite Curse Of Being Painfully Addicted To Something.

  1. January 13, 2017 at 3:30 pm

    Wow. This really touched me – I can’t wait for your next post. I totally agree with everything you’ve said – it’s so true! You have real writing talent, so always use it & never give up! This was perfectly-written & well-expressed! All in all, a great, inspiring, & interesting post – as usual! 🙂 ❤️ (check out my latest blog posts if you don’t mind 😊)

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    • January 13, 2017 at 6:36 pm

      Awww you’re far too kind to me 😊❤ thanks for such a lovely comment – I’m glad you liked it. I will absolutely check yours out 😊 xxxxxx

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  2. LyfWithEm
    January 13, 2017 at 6:24 pm

    Yes I DO care to know, goodness me! I desperately want to know how you’re going to continue this post. I was on the last line, like NO please don’t end this! Your writing is so beautiful, touching and thought-provoking. Addiction is a strange thing, when you actually think about it. So many of the examples you gave, I can relate to. And on a daily basis, we don’t always think of is as an addiction – but they are. Loads of our daily habits are. And yes the news. I despise it. Hence why I never watch it – it just ADDS to my anxiety and fear over the problems in this world. So I never know what’s going. Lol. Sorry for such a long comment of me just rambling which probably made no sense! Looking forward to the next post 🙂 xx

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    • January 13, 2017 at 6:37 pm

      Ahh I loved reading this comment 😊 thank you so much! I’m really pleased you liked it – that means ever such a lot 😊 xxxx

      Liked by 1 person

      • LyfWithEm
        January 13, 2017 at 6:38 pm

        Aha I genuinely did. I can’t get over how amazing your writing is. Then again, you’re a lot older than me right? It’s so weird – I always forget about the different ages when I’m talking to bloggers 🙂

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      • January 13, 2017 at 6:47 pm

        Ahh that compliment means everything – thank you thank you 😊 haha yeah…believe me I was nowhere near as good as you are when I was 16! I was embarrassing poor 😱😜 xxxx

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      • LyfWithEm
        January 13, 2017 at 6:48 pm

        Aw thanks! I’m 15 🙂 And I bet you weren’t that bad…I’m actually not that great either lol 🙂 x

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      • January 13, 2017 at 11:48 pm

        You’re wonderfully talented 😊 xx

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  3. January 19, 2017 at 6:10 pm

    This was great. I’ve been studying up on addictions and Social media is definitely a big one! Interestingly enough, I found that people who switch their phone’s display to black and white are a less interactive with their phones.

    Apparently, something about the excessive color causes a response in your brain that releases dopamine and makes you crave that next update. The more you know eh? I’ve detached myself from my phone (or else I’d be sucked into it). Unfortunately, my laptop is almost always in arms reach…

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    • January 20, 2017 at 8:31 pm

      Really? That is so interesting! I’m definitely going to switch to a black and white background now 😆 I know there’s a few apps you can get which analyse your phone usage, basically highlighting how much wasted time you spend on there, but I’m too scared to get one of them! I think the results would frighten me too much! Ha!


  4. in
    July 8, 2017 at 4:38 pm

    We all hv something attached, unfortunately. Great post!

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